Monday, May 25, 2009

walmart shizz is whack

DUDE not cool. this made me hate wal mart even more. "it's the company's long-standing policy not to stock any CD with a parental advisory sticker."
basically they're just not selling the green day CD and this really bothers me. they wanted to censor what they were saying. haha probably the song horseshoes and handgrenades ;] well other songs too but w/e

they said no. (BC THEYRE AWESOME LIKE THAT...yea) so its not selling at walmarrrt.

they're still selling millionssss of albums. (exaggeration ..yeeea) but like they said, for smaller bands, who are trying to get their songs out there, and big companies like walmart are trying to censor you. yeeea. -_- i dunno... just something i dont know how to explain that just bothers me...

i wonder how many bands havent been able to get their songs out there because of companies like this :\ dude that sucks.
GAH.i hate wal mart. i mean i kind of always have... but grr.

i mean i GUESS i understand their policy -_- if some kids just waltz in.. and buy random CDs? ..or something? dont want to buy some CD that has a track full of some guy going.. THIS SHIZZ IS WHACK YO MOTHATRUCKA DON TRY ND DENY WHAT UP.
then say the same thing to their little kiddie friends because they heard it in a song, because its the cool thing to do. right? right! :D idunno.

but REALLY?! noo...parental advisory stickers cds? thats what.. art is i think though.. taking risks and making people question. but not even selling it? thats not cool. gawww. annoying. do you even sell dane cook albums? he curses. lots of comedians (that are FUNNY) do. i bet your employees curse. better fire them :) curses dont even matterr theyre just words used to make a point. like alll words. like a level of rage. for some people anyway. for others theyre just common words. so who cares? we all know them. if people are trying to protect the CHILDREN they probably know them already. haha. i know kids in 2nd grade who are all BETCH PUHLEEESE! its scary 0_o. when you try and avoid something, you just end up meeting it sooner lulz.

ha i got mine at target. didnt even bother looking at walmart :)

dude is so ridiculous. & did i seriously like write a little kinda letter to walmart? oh god...

Sunday, May 24, 2009


GAHHH today was so much fun =]
i woke up at my friends house came home and got ready for this ... i really do not know what to call it? but this band had like an open rehearsal i guess you could say and it was on their driveway and we had food and some laughs AND IT WAS A JOLLY GOOD TIME had by one and all haha.
they were so gooood. then like we heard this original song that sounded really good. i mean i cant specifically hear these lyrics but w/e. the music sounded awesome dude. i cant say im good at any of these instruments, so shyaa they got skillzzz. they played 2 songs with no other practice and it was SO good. the guy even broke like 2 strings or something baha. "thats how hardcore i am" lulz
i JUST wish i remembered theyre name GRRR all i keep thinking about is driveshaft -_-

then my friend had to go home and she couldnt go by herself? so i went with herrr and we came baaack and then we ROASTED MARSHMALLOWS and made SMORES and it was SO MUCH FUN and AWESOME =]]]
then we lit firecrackers in the fire pit thing lol that was so awesome looking and gaah.
ha i even recorded that on my phone. haha even on the background someone was playing green day on her ipod and its so loud and you can see these awesome firecrackers.

ha then we watched the grudge. not that scary dude. just... the kind of stupidly scary? eh. lately i find all scaryish movies that way. maybe i need to find a genuinely SCARY movie. bc lately theyre just not SCARING me. theyre just eh thats bloody. eh thats shockingly right there in my face but who gives a cotton picking darn.

some of us played rockband too. that was funn. drums ef tee dubya(ftw) ! then i played bass bc bassist wanted to play drums. drums is a workout lol. ive only played the game 3 times but its really awesome. i wish i could get it but w/evsss.

ANNND im going to the green day CONCERT so excited ^_^
this summerrr <333333

thats my day really. REALLY awesome and i kind of loved it a lot !!
now im watching black beauty. danny elfman composed the musssic. or director of music? i dunno i cant think right now. he was da composerrr. i think the horse is irish. the accent sometimes distracts me.

Friday, May 22, 2009

laugh at yourself and move on

Went to see the psychiatrist yesterday. Played green day all the way there and back :3 hehe.
Also what happened yesterday was something funny. My friend didn't think it was funny, rather something really embarrassing but i laughed it off. That kind of makes me look really retarded but oh well :]

We walked in the store and she got what she needed and then i was all AH ORANGED NAILPOLISH! (keep in mind orange nail polish goes like THAT in this store, seriously) and she usually pays for me because i guess we're so close, I just ask? It doesnt matter. And I was all OMG SERIOUSLY THEY NEVER HAVE ORANGE! and there was like one left lol. the girl was staring at me because she knew me and im homeschooled and they dont see me anymore. eh oh well. She ended up giving me a dollar "You owe me a dollar'. But then she wanted an arizona ice tea, because it was hot-ish out and we were walking. We kind of still argued i think? the girl still looked at us.. the homeschooling reason i think. that and we're very loud me and my friend compared to the old people as it were..
I ended up putting the orange back and she ended up not getting her arizona ice tea. But while putting the nail polish back, I still had the dollar that she needed. (and i quote that she said while giving it to me too- i might need that dollar for the tea). Turns out, but I didn't know it at the time, she needed the money for tax, or something i forget exactly but she needed it. But I was at the make up section. So I walked over to the drinks section because thats where she was last. Keep in mind that this is not a smaallll store, but its not a big store. Its just like a medium store but not a WAL-MARRRT. you know? its like... 2 seven elevens lol. maybe 3 put together with aisles.
THEN i looked over to the register and she wasnt there, so i walked over to the make up section again and she wasnt there. i was all.. ok this is getting scary in a little whine outloud lol. just to be all making noise it case she heard me haha. NOT TO BE SERIOUS lol. but really it was hard to lose someone in this store.

so i went to the center aisle the intersected all of them, and walked back and forth. in case i saw her. because usually you see the ppl you need in the aisles looking down them, you know?
maybe for like a minute..
then jess came running up an aisle going OMG STAY IN ONE PLACE!
apparently the girl was staring at her and the guy was looking at her like an idiot. personally i think its just the way they look haha. but w/e :)
because she owed them money and couldnt leave until she gave them it. and iiii had the dollar lol. and as soon as the girl said oh there she goes, she bolted up the aisle to get me.. or rather the money so we could leave the store. then i came up the aisle laughing to myself. i found the whole situation rather funny. i mean we couldnt find each other in such a small store, its kind of funny.
then shes all i see that guy on the bus every day. im thinking ill see those people all the time next year but you know idc. you dont go to same school as them. at least whenever you make an appearance to the same school-goers or something you dont do something completely stupid apparently. or something worth going "omg lol" over.
then it became my fault that i didnt stay in one place. ok. then why didnt YOU stay in one place? ever hear of TEXTING? why didnt YOU call ME? i could have called you too. lots of things could happened.

it doesnt matter i dont think. laugh at yourself and then move on. its in the past and theres nothing you can do about it anyway except for dealing with it. and if dealing with it means blaming it on me then fine. blame away -_-

Sunday, May 17, 2009

po you're alive :) or we're both dead :\

OMG so busy lately it seems :) but not really? haha just seems like it i guess :)
my sister graduated so i was up really early that one day. rushing all over the house. really funny bc me and my sister and mom all running into each other in the hallway and going AH! our screams. meanwhile dad is just sitting there because hes going to the second part when everyone is going to walk up to the guy and actually get their diploma. i didnt really know what was going on. all i knew was that i was going to an early showing of my sisters graduation and that i had tickets. i thought i was special. and i thought i was going to the one where they actually walked up to it. but noooo they just stood up and went all OMG YAY! and it was so crowded but not really. BUT i saw a really special picture of billie joe armstrong on the wall because they have concerts there and i was all AH thats billie joe and explained to my sister while we we're finding our way around who he was but i don't think she was listening because she was all uh huh uh huh. the way she does when she just humors people haha. but still it was good to vent my fan girlishness. that was elizabeth.
STILL when cathy was all at the end was all do you still want your picture with billy joel armstrong i gasped of horror and shouted that there was no 'L' in a giant crowd of people outside.

then i helped with my moms end of year program. the theme was from a child's book, and there was a giant paper tree in the church sanctuary, on the stage curtain. it was pretty alright. i'm not good with any kids except for helping with carlos and only because he hates me. ha. so i only helped like with 'behind the scenes' or what have you. like the kitchen and when everyone was done watching the play thing they all went into the gym and ate, and i moved into the stage and cleaned up lol. its like bOOM you ain't seeing me!??
i had this idea for the vine and one of the teachers made me in charge of designing it and i was all "uhhh...". eventually it got done, haha. but at first i had speech and communication problems haha because i was all uh i dunno what ta do wit dis ting. yano?

now i have a question, why do people talk to certain people online, when they don't talk to them in person in real life? in just botherrrrs me. GAH. i mean i never see you -_- i'm not talk about anyone i've met through youtube or anything. gaaaah. maaaybe you just want to be friends with me (again apparently?) but stiiiill.. it's just odd to me. i mean gah. i say gah too much :\ haha i'm talking about someone else, but it could apply to me kinda sorta xD oh lordyyy.

meanwhile throughout the week i finally used the tie dye kit i got a bit ago :) i've made a shirt and pillow case HOLLAH!! practicing for all the shirts i'm going to make for the orders im (hopefully?) going to get for the online thing i'm going to set up somehow. i'm thinking district lines? but you have to send things in. gaah.

but districtlines i dunno if i'd trust them -_- i don't know much about them. :\ yea i think i'd just try and start my whole own thing or branch off of something else. maybe send something to mitchell davis :) haha. see what he thinks haha. OMG me and jess were talking about that and shes all send it to someone famous and be all can you talk about this? lol. i dont think it would work but ehh worth a shot you know? eh idc. i dont think i need someone famous to talk about me though. i think i just need my own work to speak for itself :) lol

so yeaaa. working on some designs, working on some other stuff working on some general schoolwork. summer plans. GAH almost summer. any summer ideaaaaas.... OMG MY DAD IS SO LOUD CHEWING

Friday, May 15, 2009

just woke up

had a really weird dream :\
i was in this really big store in a mall. i mean i didn't know anything about the mall, i hadn't seen it but you just knew ha. i only remember the last parts of the dream /: (BTW I REMEMBER NOW) (typing looking back) (it was seriously like, a fo real haunted house with bad rooms gaaah) (haunted hause? really?) (like me and some people were in this one room.. i forget what happened exactly...then like we escaped and went into the hallway then had to decide which door to go into next that way we could try and get out. from there it gets foggy, my memory that is. and i think i'm glad for that. but eventually we get to a store in a mall i forget the transition or it might've been one of those BOOM we're there things ha.

a guy who i havent seen since 2nd grade confessed his love for me i didn't quite believe him though. so i tried to get away. but i fell unto like clothes bc well its a store. that and he was annoying really. while i noticed on the other side of store a guy a know no who goes out with someone i know is all not able to go somewhere? (maybe he was all like trying to steal something from the store? lol) i tried to leave bc the 2nd grade guy is bothering me. -_- at the entrance though, its like a kkk thing is going on. but the other weird thing is there are lots of pipes in the center of the mall. like some might have fountains, some might have a garden this one had lots of intertwining pipes. and i guess it was way to travel now that i look back? i dunno. 2nd grade guy still following me.. -_- lol the kkk thing is all like 4 people in white robes that are stained with something. i dunno what though. theres a cop though. and im like WHOA i'm not moving man from the entrance. theres like a roadblock at the entrance though so i kind of keep moving. but yea i go the wrong way (yea its like kind of clear except for these people) people are on the other side and levels though. not many levels, maybe like 2 or 3. then like next thing i knew one of those BOOM it's there you know? in a dream the kkk like people who were quite threatening were on and in the pipes. from what i could gather from my dream you can travel on them? really odd 0o so they were all like holding on to them for dear life i mean i would, but i mean they weren't scared i forget what they were saying but one in particular was shouting and yelling. dunno anymore if it was death threats. maybe it was what they came to believe was the truth :\ hm.. never know. but i accidentally stepped on a pole and was all being pulled to them and looking back i find this funny cried out "OH SHIT" but then my heart was racing lol i was really scared. :) i think i exclaimed that remark quite a few times... then i was like really close to the person who was shouting, and then the person didn't really pay much attention to me bc i think they kept shouting. but i was like ahhh. theyre guna kill mehh. keep in mind that the 2nd grade guy has done nothing to try and save me lol. or maybe he has but i havent noticed... i dunno. ha pretty sure hasnt :) most likely was a trick :] then weirdly they all took credit cards and slid down the pole. that was weird. lol

this actually has enlightened me this dream :]
really relatable as strange as it is.. parts of it haha

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

just one of those long periods of times -_-

just feel like no ones there for a while -_-
and this one persons just not who i think that person is maybe. GAH you really can't trust anyone.
i don't like texting. everything is on record. and i know it is fer sure.

but no one believes me :( actuuually believes me. just thinks im crazy. which is nice :) you just know it is.

Sunday, May 3, 2009


so apparently my neighborhood, and the surrounding ones... have these descriptions of the people living inside them.
the one i live inside, we're looking for a fight and someone to beat up lol.
which i guess is somewhat true?? lol

but heres what ANNOYS me... whenever i'm with people i don't normally hang out with in my neighborhood at night we go why don't we go to a park? they go nahh we'll get jumped. pshh...

why don't they think that of me anyway?? lmao i'm not threatening enough haha

whatever happens at a park one time (getting jumped) they think will happen to them. which i mean they got their story wrong. OMG bothers me so much :| theyre so ridiculous. my neighborhood is much safer than the one they wanted to go in thats fer sure =] bahaha. the other one has rapists and pedofiles residing in it.

o lord what kind of place am i living in.